AS LIGHT AS LIGHT MEAL!
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A week ago, met old friend. Talked a lot, many things from study, gossip, until romance.
Haha I don’t really like to talk about the last point, cause I have the bad one and she’s too. Different stories but the same heart break.
‘You know, I really felt for him, like literally, until now, and really sad to see person that you thought the one, moved on that fast.’
‘Nah, why you guys break up? Hmm sorry.. Why don’t you try to move on too?’
‘Very long story, haha blame to my nature, I’m a loyal lover. If I still have this kind of feelings, I will always be on this position, stuck.’
‘Hmm..’ (Open her box of cigars) ‘Want?’
‘No, thanks, actually this is the weird thing, after all, that broke up things made me stay away to things like that.’
‘Like what?’
‘Like smoking, drink, go to the club or just hang out with friends. I don’t really like to do that kind of things anymore, and the amazing thing, I do pray, after years being secular. Hmm, have you ever been in my position? Lost your passion in your life, haha yes a bit drama, but he used to be my source of happiness, I thought when I decided to leave him, I will be able to control my own happiness, but ya as you see, here I am. Still stuck with the memories.’
‘Omg, this isn’t yooooouuuuuuu! Come backkkkk please! You know, in my opinion, you never lost your passion. Actually the thing is about now you don’t have him anymore, those things that you did actually only to get his attention, didn’t you?’
‘Hmmmm, I don’t know.. :( :(‘
‘Didn’t you? Honey, I know you so well. Been years you’ve tried to get his attention, hmm, maybe the truth is you never used to that kind of things? Why you’re smoking? Ask to your self :) It will takes time to heal the pain, but I’m sure you’ll pass this. The point is don’t let your self lost your self :) :)’
‘Haha, I don’t know whether this is the truth or only suggestion to my self, everytime I do smoking, somehow, cigars help me to decrease the pain or the sad feelings.’
‘No comment about that, actually, you have to be grateful, now you’re out of that circle. You know, fighting then you’re sad then you’re smoking then you’re fighting :)’
‘Hmm, you’re right, I just realized something..’
‘Move on! Have a new romance, the better one.’
‘Haha, you know I still cannot :””)’
‘Really sad to see you right now, but you always have my back dear, go have fun, take care of your self :)’
‘Thanks….’
Pouring Rain..
Ini OST drama korea yang biasa ditonton nyokap, enakeun :)
Blue sky collapse..
Notes: My friend forward this email to me..
Ok, being 20-something… They call it the “Quarter-life Crisis”…..
It is when you stop going along with the crowd and start realising that there are many things about yourself that you didn’t know and may not like.
You start feeling insecure and wonder where you will be in a year or two, but then get scared because you barely know where you are now.
You start realising that people are selfish and that, maybe, those friends that you thought you were so close to aren’t exactly the greatest people you have ever met, and the people you have lost touch with are some of the most important ones.
What you don’t recognize is that they are realising that too, and aren’t really cold, catty, mean or insincere, but that they are as confused as you.
You look at your job … and it is not even close to what you thought you would be doing, or maybe you are looking for a job and realizing that you are going to have to start at the bottom and that scares you.
Your opinions have gotten stronger.
You see what others are doing and find yourself judging more than usual because suddenly you realise that you have certain boundaries in your life and are constantly adding things to your list of what is acceptable and what isn’t.
One minute, you are insecure and then the next, secure.
You laugh and cry with the greatest force of your life.
You feel alone and scared and confused.
Suddenly, change is the enemy and you try and cling on to the past with dear life, but soon realise that the past is drifting further and further away, and there is nothing to do but stay where you are or move forward.
You get your heart broken and wonder how someone you loved could do such damage to you.
Or you lie in bed and wonder why you can’t meet anyone decent enough that you want to get to know better.
Or maybe you love someone but love someone else too and cannot figure out why you are doing this because you know that you aren’t a bad person.
One night stands and random hook ups start to look cheap. Getting wasted and acting like an idiot don’t seem as fun.
You go through the same emotions and questions over and over, and talk with your friends about the same topics because you cannot seem to make a decision.
You worry about loans, money, the future and making a life for yourself… and while winning the race would be great, right now you’d just like to be a contender!
What you may not realize is that everyone reading this relates to it.
We are in our best of times and our worst of times, trying as hard as we can to figure this whole thing out.
Pass this to your twenty-something friends… maybe it will help someone feel like they aren’t alone in their state of confusion…
Life is like a cup of coffee..
Saat-saat ngerjain skripsi, mau sidang, mau lulus, dan mulai mikir tentang kerjaan itu ngingetin ke jaman SMA. Hehe pas lagi bingung mau nerusin kuliah kemana, jurusan apa.
Dari dulu pengen banget kuliah di Bandung, tapi sepanjang perjalanan untuk kuliah di Bandung ini banyak banget ‘distraksi’nya dari mulai keterima USM Undip, ditawarin full beasiswa di UBL, temen-temen yang pada masuk Binus/Trisakti, sampe kepikiran buat masuk ESMOD karena gue mau jadi designer.
Yah dulu gue juga ngga paham sih, nantinya bakal jadi apa, ngga kebayang banget. Syukur Alhamdulillah, prosesnya emang cukup berkelok-kelok tapi cukup worth it ko, pada akhirnya di detik-detik terakhir, gue seperti ‘diarahkan’ untuk kuliah di Bandung dan emang gue rasa ini pilihan terbaik yang pernah gue ambil.
Mudah-mudahan, disaat membingungkan kaya sekarang, bingung baiknya kerja dimana atau apa rencana abis beres kuliah, karena sumpah banyak banget pilihannya, takut salah langkah. Makin kesini ‘distraksi’nya justru makin kenceng, tawaran ini itu, kesempatan ini itu, sampe akhirnya ada di posisi bingung mau yang mana mau ngapain lagi.
Haha dulu gue anaknya pengen banget ngintip masa depan, suka banget nanya-nanya kira-kira gue bakal jadi apa, yah, ngga ada cara lain selain dijalanin aja sih yang ada.. Gimana cara coba ngintip masa depan.. Kalo ada yang bisa ramal katanya gue bawa hoki buat orang-orang sekitar gue, punya suami kaya raya dan lancar karir nantinya, ya di aminin aja :D
Pada intinya, ngga pernah lupa gue untuk bersyukur dan berdoa sama Allah karena sebenernya yang paling paham jalan yang paling baik untuk kita itu ya Allah, gue yakin banget, disimpenin satu cerita yang happy ending buat gue :’)
